15 October 2006

...utterly saddened and shocked...

huven been blogging becoz MP has robbed away most of my time! managed to steal some time out to rest for the past few days...MP was on hold becoz karen hurt her toes very badly so din return back to sch for a "LONG" time.

came online today wif a sleepy yet relaxed mood...wanted to blog and post some happy stuffs such as the ham and mushroom quiche which i baked yest....(ya..my oven's finally back to normal le)...

Ham and Mushroom Quiche
(a modification from the origin recipe "Bacon and Mushroom Quiche)
(dun feel like commenting on the quiche part....perhaps other time ba)


...but i was utterly saddened by sm unpleasant and shocking news which i got to know jus a moment ago when i went to read lani's and ling's blog. omg...i feel like crying as i type along....=(

CY is a guy from my course...i only got to know him during year 2 sem 2....we were bench-mate in AdFS lab, tgt with Azuran, Khali and Shingo. I still rem them teasing each other and miss mah picking on him at every minute. Although we seldom talk and it's only those few 3-hr long practical sessions tat we worked tgt, i can sense tat he's a very easy-going, happy-go-lucky kind of person who nv fails to brighten his frens' day. I also know him as YW and EL's fren as i used to see them hang ard happily teasing each other. I smtimes envy them as i nv once enjoyed my days like they did in poly! i envy they got the company of real frens!

Jus this afternoon, i got to know that he had left us early on thur. my heart sank when i confirmed wif lani. i feel pain in my heart. Even though i only talked to him a few times, i can feel tat my mood is affected when i know tat he had to leave early. y does good ppl always have to leave early? he's only 19 yr old!! We r all 19 yr old students waiting to graduate and realise our dream!! Isn't it unfair to bring him away to heaven now when he had so much more to enjoy for the next few decades??!!....i suddenly feel tat life is really short and unpredictable!

I feel very hurt and sad.....i hope this is the last time i hear this kind of news.....

To my coursemate, CY, i pray that you will be as happy as u were in sch in tat place called Heaven. RIP.

04 October 2006

....BAD DAY!

...feel demoralized, inferior, stupid, tired, confused, silly, disappointed, angry, frustrated, sad...sad..sad..SAD! =( i'm feeling really down..i mean DOWN! DOWN!!


i feel like dying....argh~!!

16 September 2006

Birthday month.......HaPPy Shalalala...("',)!!

woo! i'm back to update abt my life for the past few weeks! ..............

been busy wif lotsa of things though it's supposed to be vacation period...haiyaya! Firstly, MP starting early and proposal report due date pushed forward. Secondly, have been working which killed away 3/4 of my time daily! Thirdly, alot of birthdays falling in these 2 months. Forthly, have to prepare farewell gifts coz leaving the company early. Lastly, have to source for ideas and materials for e-business. Haiyaya...24 hour a day is really not enuft!! boo!

ok....shall update u all wif the "happenings" for the past few weeks.....


the birthday trail started wif my dear sister......................

on 21st August 2006, 12:00 am....................


My future brother-in-law bought this cake from four leaf....specially for his beloved girlfriend (my sister lah!..haha!). Love love love~~~! It's a mango mousse cake with fresh strawberry and mango toppings! Delicious neh! I wanted to take a pic of the cake with candles...but hp not enuft space! boo!


on 26th August 2006.......mummy's birthday.............


My family, including J, had dinner at the famous "Pang Xie Da Wang" in AMK to celebrate mummy's birthday! yeah...papa's treat! good husband nehz...hee! This dish is called creamy crab. We also ordered the "pang xie mee fen tang" which tasted so heavenly that i wished for more! The soup was very additive...creamy because milk was added and had obvious peppery note which brings out the fragrance of the whole dish! woo! I give it 4 out of 5. I din give full marks becoz it's too oily...hee! I highly recommend u all to try out this super duper delicious dish...especially to those who love creamy dishes, u should not miss it!

On top of that, we ordered side dishes like green vegetables with mushrooms and another of their speciality, fried tofu.....

The fried tofu was soft inside and crispy outside. If i'm not wrong, the tofu is made up of prawns, shallots, spring onions and those flours that is used to make fish balls (i'm not sure wat that kind of flour is called...any idea?..hee!) perhaps also some other secret ingredients! haha! the tofu was deeped in batter and covered with bread crumbs before putting into extremely high temperature oil. the bread crumbs adds crispiness, fragrance and extra mouthfeel. i will give it 3.5 out of 5...hee!

den when we reached home....ooo...there's cake! birthday will be meaningless without cake rite!! haha! Proudly presents Tiramisu cake (chocolate and cheese) from Secret hmm....oh gosh! i suddenly can't rem wat's the brand name...oops! when i rem i will update again....hee! Pardon my short term memory!...........


so with tat cake, the celebration for my mummy's birthday comes to an end...!



now it's my turn! yeah....! On 9th Sept 2006, Saturday........

i had kbox session wif my gang...my sistas lah! wendy, amanda and yichun. shitty yit hann overslept and lin have to work. but nvm...i have my sistas! haha....oh! they actually hide the cake at one corner with bags and newspapers covering over it....but i itchy hand go and take the papers to read....ya...i spoilt the whole surprise myself!! haiyaya! they sang bday song....den chun video taped the whole celebration...yeah yeah! thanks alot sistas!! too bad my hp no more space...have to wait for wendy to send me the pic and the videos....hehehe! oh! the cake they bought from Breadtalk was Tiramisu which was one of my favourite! Thank you very much!

On 12th September, 12:00 am....which was my birthday!!...yeah!.............

my sister bought black forest from Polar....





1, 2, 3 blow!! and that ended my birthday! haiyaya...have to wait for another year again! boo!

This year's bday was more happening den last year which was a gd thg...it showed my wish for a better year came true! this yr really seems a better year...at least i get closer wif my gp of gang again...i find myself again and most importantly, i learnt to be happier! yup...and i shall continue to maintain tat kind of life!

My birthday wish: I wish for happiness and good health in everyone!!








20 August 2006

Back to shopping mood!! yeah yeah!!

oooo! finally went to my fav place bugis. yesterday was another happy and enjoyable day of my life! met up wif amanda, xue lin and yi chun! yesh...it's another WOMEN SHOPPING DAY!! woohoo! =D hmm..supposed to meet them in bugis mrt at ard 2 plus but was super late....left house at 2 plus...hee! so in the end, they went to eat first...ooo....they had lunch at BILLY BOMBER!! so by the time i reached there, they already filled their stomach full! i ended up eating banana split! aiya! forgot to take photo of it...very nice...but i can't finish up coz it looks disgusting when it's melted. moreover, i din like ice cream at all! hee! BILLY BOMBER!! i like the ambience there....so 70s....the oldies they played...ooo....super nice place to chill out! my virgin visit there! hee! =X

den hanged out at parco bugis.....before heading to bugis street. oh i actually intended to buy brikenstock look-alike sandals, bag, t-shirts and pants. but too bad...nthg caught my eyes except two pants...





nice mah?....hee....i like both alot...plus the sale person very friendly! gave me discounts too...wahaha!...thanks chun and lin for giving me their opinions!

den went to chill out at BUGIS CAFE.....i ordered ice mocha....chun treated us wif fries! yeah yeah! nanny nanny! (she gonna kill me! =X) wahaha!

den we headed down to marina square.....bought nthg from there...so disappointing! Din buy any bag...sian....den saw so many young and pretty gals and ladies with model-like figures! so envy them..haiz! forget it....i long gave up the idea of dieting! coz i realised the more i cut down on my diet the fatter i become and vice versa. so i have come to a conclusion: eating wateva u want is the best way to slim down! wahaha!


next weekend shall be another happening week! no more reports and projects for the time being! so before MP starts in mid sept, i shall slog from mon to fri and enjoy every weekend! woohoo! yeah yeah!

Songs to recommend: Tien Tien Ye Ye by F.I.R


黎安莱姆丝:How do I live without you
Faye:I want to know
黎安莱姆丝:How do I breathe without you
Faye:If you ever go
黎安莱姆丝:How do I ever
合 :Ever survive How do I How do I How do I live

阿沁:当你的泪在微笑中滑落 回忆的风吹着我走 我却情愿停留
Faye:当一颗心到时间的尽头 呼吸也会痛
合 :可是我记得 你给我的梦

Faye:每一天在你的怀里等待
阿沁:每一夜我感觉你的存在 走过伤害
Faye:我回头看
合 :是永远都灿烂的爱
Faye:这一次我决定勇敢去爱
阿沁:这一次我陪你看到未来
Faye:So, how do I live
阿沁:How do I live
合 :How do I live without you

Faye:How do I live

阿沁:当世界都遗忘我的时候 你的一切
对我来说 经过才能拥有
Faye:我明白一份真爱的背后 藏着苦和忧
合 :心痛的时候 更深刻感受
Faye:每一天在你的怀里等待
阿沁:每一夜我感觉你的存在 走过伤害
Faye:我回头看
合 :是永远都灿烂的爱
Faye:这一次我决定勇敢去爱
阿沁:这一次我陪你看到未来
Faye:So, how do I live
阿沁:How do I live
合 :How do I live without you

黎安莱姆丝:And tell me now

Faye:每一天在你的怀里等待
阿沁:每一夜我感觉你的存在 走过伤害
Faye:我回头看
合 :是永远都灿烂的爱
Faye:这一次我决定勇敢去爱
阿沁:这一次我陪你看到未来
Faye:So, how do I live
阿沁:How do I live
合 :How do I live without you

黎安莱姆丝:How do I live without you
How do I breathe without you

12 August 2006

I WANNA BE HAPPY...!

wow! wow! wow! yest finally went to town with lani and cynthia! it's been so long since i last went to town....and i feel so happy becoz i huven met cynthia for a long long time! still rem we used to take 969 tgt!

woosh! i feel much better now...initially, i thought my frens wld disapprove of wat i did but seems like no one blames me! thank them a zillion for their understanding! and not to forget, thanks a lot Lil Prince! =D i feel much relieved now though i still feel bad!

hmm...went to town wif the gals...well actually i still dun have the mood to shop coz the sem huven officially end and there's test next wed! but decided to accompany lani to look for her boy's pressie at tangs and cynthia to look for laces at SPOTLIGHT. but in the end nv go SPOTLIGHT coz too late le and it's out of the way....oops! sorry cynthia! oya! saw the cakes at Bakerzin....they looked so heavenly beautiful and appealing! oooohhhh! lani bought one for her boy.....from the way she went ard looking for her boy's pressie...hmm...can see how deeply she is in love wif him!! she wants the best of the best for her boy!! woo...so loving! wahaha! =P

yeah yeah!...we went orchard cineleisure kbox to sing!.....tat marked the last stop of the day! =D

09 August 2006

Troubled troubled TROUBLED!!!!! A bad start to my MP!

on mon, we had MP briefing regarding MP selection and grouping. lecturers made it compulsory that each group must have 3 members! Y??!! i dun see the point of having 3 members?! isn't 2 members enuft?! and they will put in anyone without gp into those incomplete gp! MP is abt choosing the rite ppl which we feel comfortable working wif! wat if the third person they add into the gp is someone which cannot work wif?!! den the gp will suffer! y can't the lecturers be flexible??! damn! this is making all of us crazy! because of this, i became a selfish, despicable and unprincipled person.

i asked my fren from the other gp to join karen and me for MP since she is more comfortable working wif us and moreover, karen wanted her to join us initially. well...i also wanted her to join us coz i worked wif her before and she's really an effective team mate who will put projects as her top piority. so i approached her on mon nite and she was quite hesistant at first because she has commited to another gp....hmm..guess wat?! it's HL's gp! omg!! i knew that long ago but i also heard recently that miss mah's project for them was cancelled or wat. moreover, lecturers did mention that all gps previously submitted will be disregarded. tat's y i thought it's ok tat PY can back out and join us instead. i know very well tat PY is a sweet and innocent gal who will not hurt anyone. tat's y i asked her to think carefully and if she's really more comfortable working wif us, i will do the talking. afterall, i am already on extremely bad terms wif HL! and my pt of view is that MP is a very important element of the whole diploma, everyone shld be given a chance to choose the gp they want to work wif! PY shld be given a chance to choose! In the end PY agreeded but i know she feel very bad abt it. haiz...thinking of it...before MP start, so many unhappy thgs have happened le....i dunno when MP start, how will my other frens think of me??!! dunno if HH, cynthia and yean fang will be angry wif me? needless to say, HL hates me even more now...she's been giving me those sucky kind of attitude and face like i owe her alot! well...seems like i really owe her alot now! BUT BUT BUT wat abt wat she did to me??!! being psychologically tortured by her for almost one yr! and smthg to add on....S told me when she asked HL who are her gp members, HL replied telling her the members plus added "is it SOMEONE sent u to ask?" see that?! she think of me so badly! she always think only the bad side of others! wat abt herself??!! I HATE HER!!! but becoz of this incident, i became in debt to her!! i am feeling really really troubled these days...i dunno wat i did was correct or wrong?! was i really wrong?!! =(

05 August 2006

Back to secondary school times.....i miss them!!

yest nite was the most enjoyable nite i had eversince these three years after graduation from secondary school. finally met up for dinner! guess who turned up?!! wooo....yi chun, hann zai and AND AMANDA and WENDY were there!!! so happy to see them ard! huven been meeting up with all of them inclduing chun and hann for the past few weeks...it's really rare to have everybody present for the dinner at pizza hut, cwp. we ordered the family set which consisted of two regular pizzas, 5 bowls of soup and a jug of soft drink. As three big eaters hann, wendy and amanda were there (oops! pardon me! wahaha!), we ordered the side dish spicy drumblets to fill up their stomach...k all our stomach k! wahaha! we chatted and teased each other like wat we used to do in our secondary school days....it brought back some memories...how time flies! xiang dan nian (thinking back den..)...we were only16 yrs old...and now, yr 2006, we r 19 already! Old old old...time is running out...oh no! i huven gotten a bf yet..wahaha! nah..jk!..boo!

oya! i realised our characters din change much..haha! except that wendy became more "women"! hehe....oh! one major change among us....the gals put on weight le whereas the only guy, mr lai, slimmed down alot! wah seh...unfair! how he managed to do tat! envy him lehz! nvm...gals..let's jia you! wahaha!

before leaving pizza hut, we took some pics (below). realised that mr lai was not there?...haha...he was the man of the day lehz! he "voluteered to make the payment (as in we give him the money and he bring it to the cashier) and take pic of us gals...hee...GENTLEMAN lehz! =X

after the sumptuous dinner we went to party world at civic center. too bad there were no vacant rooms. we had no choice but to sing hall lor...each of us paid $13+. got tibits and drinks but din get to sing much of the songs....too bad. but nvm...though i was tired, i enjoyed the time there as all my frens were ard! i simply love the accompany of my frens! wendy and amanda, i know very clearly that both of u are trying to make me feel that u all do cherish our friendship...thanks! hmm i hope my feelings are accurate?!..hee! sorry if i appeared cold or very sian coz i'm really tired after whole day of work! Thanks alot gals!

left the place at ard 11 pm. hann and me took the same train back...by right he shld alight at yishun, to show that he is a GENTLEMAN, he "reluntantly" agreeded to accompany me to AMK den take two stations back...wahaha! thanks arh! it's been long since we had a one to one talk. though he's been very into his NS and zhu zhu club life, he's still my buddy! i will still regard him as one even if he does not!! (as if! will kill him...!) wahaha!

17 July 2006

STRESSED~!

argh! i feel very stressed now!!! been sitting in front of the lap top for the whole day doing research, reports, research,reports! there's so many thgs to do after SIP! first is sip report...i dunno how to go about writing the company tasks..it's not stated clearly in the study guide!! how wld i know wat it means by "a technical description of the task(s) assigned"? a breif one? or a very detailed one...but how to squeeze within 8 pages (inclusive of other sections)? oh man! this is freaking me out! and the stomach cramps is making me feel worse! bad day bad day!
then next is food safety virtual report to be due in a week's time?..i think so....again so much info to be included but limited to one page. boo! then food safety HACCP templates are making me go ding dong! yes no yes no...is this a CCP..no it's not...blah blah...and y say it is not a HACCP...blah blah....coz i say so ^&*(**%#%$#%! woosh! den so much research to do on the critical limits and legislation of those food ingredients...on and on non stop!
And worse, i blur blur replied "yes...ok..np!" to my manager when he called to ask if i can go back to work....wahaha! but i din asked him when to start work....guess he will let me know yea =X. so which means i have less time to work on FS and SIP report?! ans me am i looking for more stress and trouble?! oh gosh...
oh..and two person sms me good nite msges jus now....he and chun....but i replied only to one....hee....thanks!
tmr will be meeting my gpmates in sch to do the HACCP tgt...hopefully we can complete the templates!
..........i jus hope that thgs will turn better soon.....(where's my gurdian angel?!)

15 July 2006

I NEED LOTSA $$$$MONEY$$$$!!

heya! to those who loves baking to the extent that u can sacrifice anything for the sake of it, check this out! http://www.creativeculinaire.com/about.html
scrolling through the courses offered, i feel that it is pretty worth it bacause the theory and practical covered are quite competent. and they will definitely serve as an add-0n to what we are learning in FoodScience!
However, given my current financial status (a diploma undergraduate without a stable job) , 300 bucks for a course is still considered expensive...haiz. Sometimes, i really wish that i'm born with a rich background! then money will not become an obstacle in my learning journey! but ppl who knows me well will know that i dun like to use my parent's money unless really left with no choice! It doesn't feel good having others to pay for me too!
Who is willing to be my guardian angel cum financial sponsorer?! wahaha! =X

13 July 2006

A very strange experience back to school!

yest went back to tp...omg! look at all the juniors there! the new intakes! omg! i'm speechless! they are all dressed up! but i have to admit they looked very, extremely presentable...certainly much more presentable than us seniors who jus came back from SIP. wahaha! i almost wanted to back off the moment i alighted at the bus stop because i was dressed up very very casually. come one...i'm going back to school for project discussion only...y shld i go to the extent to get all dressed up?! our seniors dun do tat too! luckily i put on make-up...if not i wldn't dare to step into that "school of Fashion". what caused the trend huh? where did these juniors find time to make up, shopping, dress up for lectures held as early as 8am(usual time slot for applied science school course)? AND where did they get money to buy those branded wears?! =\ at first i thought i was too sensitive but when i met up with my gpmates, they also had the same kind of feeling and thoughts on our juniors...wahaha! oh man! these juniors are freaking us out.....Juniors! DUN PRESSURIZE UR SENIORS K! no no no! seniors must not lose to them! there's still plenty time before the next semester starts...hehehe.....i shall shop for more clothings! i may design my own too...keke! Watch out juniors! Ur seniors are back! wahahaha! lol! =P

09 July 2006

SIP's over....hooray~!

finally, SIP's over! it's smthg worth celebrating manz! haha!

fri was my last day of work at my attachment company......had mixed feelings. initially, i thought i would be very happy as i looked forward to that day but to my surprise, i had some kind of sad feelings...like she bu de the department which i worked in. i dunno for wat reason, the colleauges there had been treating me very nice during my last few weeks of my sip. weird! we started to have small conversations during teabreak. like soo ching actually asked me out of the blue if i had watched the match between portugal and italy...haha! so funny! den auntie jenny will chit chat wif me in the pantry den kept offering me cakes to eat...den say i very shy and soft spoken. oh! it was my supervisor who brought tat up! haiyo....i'm not tat GUAI(well behaved)! oh pls! the day before my last day, i went to consult the so called "F&B manager" of the Food Science & QA department on wat kind of food the department likes. i wanted to buy cakes but my supervisor siew cheng doesn't like...she prefers savoury. so she suggested busying curry puffs....gd idea! yup so she offered to order for me. i orderd 25 and this amount included 5 extras lorz...in the end all finished. haha! honestly, other than the group manager, i like everyone in the whole department!! =) last day at work was very relaxing....did nthg except clearing up my desk and cupboards...not much to clear...was more busy writting my last week of logbook and getting necessary signatures and stamps. tat was my first time staying in the office for so long! before i left, i passed the gift which i made and a letter to my supervisor. It was a token of appreciation. she had taught me alot of thgs and i am really greatful to her although smtimes her comments and thinking angers me...oops! haha! i hope she likes the gift!

den after work, serene, huiling, desiree and me went to jurong pt's BENTO BOX to have dinner. the food looked and tasted great. i always have this fansination over the decorations of jap foods! senior joined us for the dinner too! great chatting wif them! these are some of the pics me and desiree took!

this was wat i ate...ebi & salmon teriyaki!

yummy ebi! arh~~!


this was wat desiree ate......looked so appealing rite?! creamy creamy!

"after"....i finshed up everything...burp~! haha!
"after"...desiree also finshed up everything wor! see it's too delicious~! burp~! oops!

06 May 2006

Friday's afterwork.....Dinner and Shopping at Jurong Point...

It's Saturday again!! Yeah yeah! It's going to be a long weekend coz monday's a OFF day....yeah~! But unfortunately, still have Food Safety Report to work on! Argh~!
Yest reached home at ard 9.30pm...took a bath and watched Da Chang Jin. Think i was too tired that i dozed off at the sofa. haha...ooo...hmm ya. Tat's y i din blog yest nite. Actually i intended to wake up early this morning but when the alarm of my hp sounded, i jus switched it off and went back to sleep...haha! haiya....come on! it's a Saturday! Dun expect me to wake up tat early. Afterall, i'm not involved in voting! hee!
Yest nite after work, my polymates cum colleagues--serene, HuiLing and me went Jurong Point to have dinner. oops! din take note of the Name of the eating place. This eating place sells western food like pasta, burgers, as well as Japanese foods like Ramen, Tampura, Katsu Don etc. I tried the Salmon Teriyaki set which comes with miso soup. Nice nice! And i like the layout of the eating place too! Here's pictures of our food.....call me insane but i'm fond of taking picturs of foods!
Friday after work...serene and me on our way to Jurong Point....HuiLing was sitting infront of us...hmm..couldn't squeeze her in the pic coz my face occupy too much space lahz! sorry arh! haha!
My Salmon Teriyaki Set....yummy yummy~!
HuiLing's set....
Serene's Tempura Set....
After dinner, we went shopping around. Hey hey! Bought a skirt at Ice Lemon Tea...haha...surprised i will buy clothes from that shop...have nv fancied any of the clothes there before....coz i always feel that the clothes there are too jap styled. But yest that skirt that i bought was damn cheap and it's jus a plain white skirt that looks quite ok...so i bought it without much consideration...hee! Den walk past afew shops that sells ladies footware...haiya...the designs of all the shoes are almost the same. Oh gosh~! Not much variety! Decided to walk into Charles and Kieth...hahahaha..a pair of green colour heel caught my eyes! hehehe! i bought it of course! yup! yeah yeah! And i was so happy that i wore it immediately! Crazy me! I'm always scolded crazy becoz of this! wateva!
Yup...i shall blog till here...will try to upload the pic of the heels i bought next time when i have the time. Haiyaya...feel like gg Kbox tmr coz i huven used the voucher i bought from manda and the validity is only 3mths. BUT i have online meeting at 2pm! wat a gd timing...i really wished my gpmates can change the time! haiya! Du chang qin de.....zui ku se.....~~~!

30 April 2006

Fri's Family Dinner at Suntec Fish & Co.....woo~~!!

Friday after work.....

WHERE'S MY FOOD?!!"



"Introducing the delicious and appealing half-eaten Seafood Platter!...yummy~! The rice and sotong is super nice! but i dun eat the cockles! yucks!"

at Suntec Fish&Co. I LOVE TAT PLACE!!!

The beginning phase of SIP!...hohoho...

i huven been updating my blog for the past 2 weeks!! haha...wat i'm busy wif?...well well, my SIP had started! though it's been two weeks but i'm still trying to adapt to the working system there. haha...have also been busy with Food Safety research. oh man! the part i'm doing...the info is mostly found in TP library redspot. I travelled back to tp on sat...it took me 2hrs of travelling time!! oh gosh! i took mrt there becoz i din wanna waste my mrt concession. i wld be a dumb if i took bus there! heehee! den had dinner wif yi chun at cwp after that. we had student meal at Mac..haha...budget! oya! i bought clothes from TM too! had been spending alot recently. bought nokia hp..yeah yeah! so happy! tat's the only thing tat really brightened my day for the past 2 weeks! yeah yeah! finally bought a new hp and it's a 3G phone! yipee!! but at first the mp3 got some prob and i had to make a trip back to bugis on last wed (i think?) after work to change it....haiz...speaking of tat makes me boil up! argh~! if there's prob wif the phone, y did they launch it in the first place!!! dun the company have an in-house QA/QC huh!! ok..nvm...now i think the phone's ok liaoz....had stopped giving me tat problem. woosh~!
oh yeah! took alot of pics and videos wif this phone...hahaha...can't stop smiling when i look at my phone....wahahaha! will be uploading more pics in the future!

16 April 2006

Worries.....haiz!

It's been a week since i last blogged. Had alot to express but was simply too tired and stressed out to put those words in mind into my blogs. Slept merely for 45mins on tue (slept at 5am and woke up at 5.45am on wed morning) before setting off to school for SIP Launch at 8.45am! oh man! it's not even the start of the semester and we were already worn out by loads of school works including discussions, researches and reports! the main point i want to highlight here is we were only given 2days to work on the induction package which by right or usually should have taken at least a month to work on it. I'm not complaining, neither am i afraid of the weightage and difficulty level of workloads, i'm jus worried of the time frame given.
On wed, it was the launch of SIP Briefing. We were told by our LOs of the company we are attached to for SIP. Ya...i was attached to TAT company (you will know it if u r my friend..haha!) Xian Wen was so agitated and sad that she cried out the moment she was told where she was attached becoz she prefers service management since she is currently working in the service line...haiz...actually i feel lecturers should reconsider becoz i feel she's more suitable working in FnB outlets. She's charismatic, speaks well and lively! I believe her supervisors will be impressed by her ethusiasm and optimism! haha!
ok back to the worry part i wanna express. Three other gals are also attached to the same company as me. haiz..ok..nvm...i had been told by my LO and lecturers that it is a very strict company with extremely high expectations. omg! It is stated in the forms that i will be working on projects, lab works etc. My worry is that i'm afraid i am not prepared and up to their expectation and that i will "tarnish" the reputation of my school!! Nitemares! And further more, one tha gals that is going is a well-known top student in my course and she's pretty good in almost every aspects. Her academic results are very impressive! oh man! And the other two gals are also good students with good academic results too. All of them are talented and inteligent. Who am I? I'm jus an average-graded student who has low profile in school. I have no doubt about my attitude towards learning....I pretty touched when my schmates said to me that they have confident in me and that they believe i have the ability to do the best. But it's easier said than done. With a positive learning attitude but without the required knowledge and skills will not bring me far too! I feel that i'm not competent enough. What's the use of reading up on the theory part and research for SIP when i dunno how to apply them in work?...i'm so worried. Nevertheless, i will still read up as much before SIP. Btw, tmr marks the start of the semester, as well as the START of SIP! woosh~!
oya...later will be having an online discussion with my groupmates for Food Safety. OMG! My greatest worry is that am i able to manage between work and sch projects? And wat abt my frens and family? I hadn't had time to meet up wif my buddies since last wk...oh gosh! so much to tell them~! haiz! And and wat abt shifting house? Will it crash wif my schedules?...I am clueless wat life will be like after tmr...!

04 April 2006

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hohoho! it's been so damn long since i last blogged. it's not as if i'm real busy wif renovating stuffs, researches, shopping, gaming, singing, hanging out, enjoying life...it's jus tat i feel my life during this vacation period is too "mono"..like a continuous repetition tat will only end in a wk's time coz by then, it wld be the start of my attachment training!! blogging everyday will be a waste of my time as well as concerning readers' coz there's not much happenings and interesting thoughts to read abt. i have also come to realise that there's more enjoyment when reading blogs than writting my own blogs...haha! however, i have decided to blog today becoz there's a sudden flow of thoughts in my brain tat need to be expressed..haha....hmm...i shall begin from last fri...

Fri, 31/03/2006:
half the day gone again..jus dun have the determination to wake up at 7am coz in my mind, the word "holiday" kept appearing, reminding me tat holiday= sleeping late..oops! haha. by den mummy had went off to meet my aunt...they were gg to "sao mu". hmm...the new generation doesn't tags along anymore...but it does not mean we no longer respect our elders...it's the heart tat counts. some grandchildren follow their parents to "sao mu" but they do not know the real purpose of going there. they go for the sake of going...or simply becoz "my parents ask me to do so"! my aunts are not those very traditional kind of people who demand the younger generation to follow traditional practices. woosh~! lucky..haha! take cny for instance, eversince both my grandparents have gone far away to a place called "heaven", we have not been making visits to each other's house on cny. well...i'm used to it...haha!

chatted wif yean hwa on msn...both of us were damn bored...both agreeded tat spore is so small tat there r not many places to hang out! honestly, from the start of this holiday, i have been to almost every part of Spore (been to north. south, eat, west area!) Well..actually i personally feel tat it's not a matter of whether the place we hang out is "happening" or not, it's the people present that matters most!! it's the people present, the accompany of frens tat creates the atmosphere, the FUN tat we desire most!!! as we chatted along, i asked her if she had salons to recommend coz i wanna cut my hair! ya...been thinking and hesitating...coz most of my fren tell me long hair suit me better but i'm those kind who can't stand hair swaying around my neck! haha. And the wheather's so warm in Spore. Den she recommended the house-based salon near compass pt which she often go. coincidently, she jus went there to trim her hair afew days ago..den saw her pic...not bad. though i don't trust the skills of "aunties", i decided to give it a try since yen hwa's hairstyle turn out to be quite stylish and the highlight here is it is cheap! haha..6 bucks only! den she askedif wanna go shopping after tat..well...i din want initially coz i dreaded window shopping now and seeing my frens buy clothes and accessories while i shop around going back empty handed! gals will know this kind of feeling best! i din wanna spend money coz i need to save up to buy hp and and and i'm not working now!! tat's the main pt! haha! but i wldn't mind spending money on kbox! heehee! coz i simply love singing!! so i suggested we go kbox but come to think of it, there are not many people from poly to ask along. suddenly, i realised tat we do not have many close frens in poly...not to mention close frens, there are simply very few frens wif common interest--singing! only yen hwa, man kit, karen, cynthia (but have to accompany bf)...ya..can only think of these few. the rest all dun like singing...haiz! tat's y i only go kbox wif my sec sch frens! honestly, i really wish my poly life can be much much more "happening" and not all abt projects and exams!

Sat, 01/04/2006:
well...took bus 965 to compass pt to meet yen hwa. on the bus, i fell alseep again while listening to mp3..haha..as usual! oya..on the bus, there's this gal who is quite pretty...wif gd dressing sense came abroad. i was awake den..so i took a glance at her look den at her dressing...haha! well..i feel tat nowadays "jealousy" no longer exist bet women! Like in most drama series, ugly women always speak ill of and go to every extent to harm beauties..haha...come on! in today's reality, humble women are the most attractive. I may spend jus 5 secs looking at a suave man but i will spend a min to look at a woman wif elegance, beauty and impressive dressing sense! i will admire and learn from her dressing styles. but ahem...i will not try to imitate her behaviour coz i think it's really unnecessary. the natural self is part of beauty! yup!

so i met yen hwa and had my hair cut...well...jus a trim...turned out okay...haha..den back to compass pt again...we went coffee bean to have coffee while waiting for her friend to come. we sat outside...woosh~! i hated the smell of cigaratte smoke! den we chatted abt leo guys coz she jus met a leo-ns guy at a club who is wooing her. hmm..we both believe in astrology...haha..dun laugh k...smtimes it's really quite true. i only have some advises to her based on my pass experience..leo guys..hmm..generally they are very nice people who will try his best to make smone happy! but i personally feel tat they can be very proud at times, esp when they have achieved smthing honourable! haha. one thing to raise up...virgo guys are problematic! but virgo gals are perfectionist with high expectations of themselves..like to be left alone and tend to bottle up problems inside them..haha..and they are very VERY NICE people! haha...i know it very well coz i am virgo! oops~! den went off tgt after finishing up the coffee..her fren and her wanted to go CWP...so we took 965 back to woodlands. oya! hwa got herself a new hp..the latest nokia 3G phone! wah seh..so gd! den we took sm pics on the bus...i dropped off at yishun to take bus 858 back home...by den it's already 6pm..washed up and had dinner. oya..sad to say, my sis din notice i trimmed my hair...which means there's no difference!! omg!

Sun, 02/04/2006:
met chun at woodlands mrt..was late as usual..hann can't make it coz he's still sleeping! he went MOS yest nite...muz had drank alot till his voice is husk! anyway, chun and i decided to go orchard cineleisure sing instead since she will be meeting her fren in town later, so reached there at 11.40am...had k-lunch there..delicious! the grilled fillet fish wif BBQ sauce tasted nice except it's a bit burnt at the bottom side! haha! sang alot of my fav songs...attempted to record them into my mp3 but turned out to be unclear! oh man! den went far east after tat...oh..chun not meeting her fren coz she over slept...haha. den i saw a black necklace....love accessories! bought it! keke! den accompany chun shop for clothes and shoes....and not to forget, also for amanda's and wendy's bday present! well...can u imagine?! we shopped round and round for the whole afternoon till 6pm at far east only?! haha..tat's my first time spending four hrs shopping at the small shopping mall! haha. break record! we had a hard time looking for amanda's present coz we really dunno wat to buy for her...and we have to stick to our budget! but at the end of the day we managed to buy a tube for her...suit her..she can bare her sexy shoulder! haha. den hann zai saw us...he was wif his fren...anyway, chun n me went wisma topshop but she din managed to buy anything..so we went off tgt wif hann zai..rushing home to catch campus superstar grand final! omg! they sang all my fav song! Ji De, Kiss Goodbye, Superwomen, Lian Ai Da Ren, Lian Ai Pin Lui! OMG!! nice! thumbs up!

Mon, 03/04/2006:
initially, wanted to stay home to rest and clear up my room but sis off today. need her to sign on a new telly line while i buy a new hp...so in the end, decided to meet her at bugis since she wants to go there pray....so mum and me set off to bugis. mum treated my to mee siam and po piah! i love mee siam!! At the eating place, there's this uncle in his 50s who is in charge to clearing the tables and washing the dishes. i recognise him as the very hardworking uncle. everytime i go there to eat, he is always busy clearing the tables and doing alot of chores at the kitchen. i have nv see him rest at any moment! applause for him! And he doesn't show any sign of tiredness or unhappiness! he still puts on a smile. the rest of the aunties (serving crews) at the serving counter were chatting at every moment! haha...wat a dif! if i were the lady boss, i will be most willing to pay the uncle at a higher pay den the rest coz he deserve it. the aunties kept ordering the uncle to help them carry and bring things....aren't they paid to work too?! can't stand the sight of those aunties! mum wanted to shop at OG so i accomapanied her...not many ppl there..well expected since it's monday! nthg caught her eyes as usual..heehee! den sis called to say she can't make it to bugis so in the end we met her at citylink! argh~! all becoz of her we were caught in the rain while walking to bugis mrt! argh~! i had to fold up my jeans....though stylish but made me look so short. ok..i admit i am short! so went citylink singtel shop...the only phone worth buying is yen hwa tat nokia model de...but me and my sis feel tat the price might drop in a few wk's time since it is newly launched so might as well wait..haiz...so in the end i din buy again! haiz..sad! den went marina sq HANs have dinner...i had black pepper chicken chop...well...so disappointing! firstly, the proportion was exceptionally small as compared to the one i had at TM. Secondly which is the most important pt, the black pepper chick chop was not well marinated and there was not enough spices added! disappointing! there's still room for improvement! And shouldn't there be consistency in all the HANs outlets?! but the aunty (definitely not the ones at the counter!) serving us was very polite. tat's smthg worth praising! the rest shld learn from her! den went shopping at the small shops at second level...well..looks almost exactly like the one at parco bugis..haha! bought jeans at 2 for $65....me and my sis one each...so i only need to pay $32 for one jeans...worth it! even cheaper than giodarno! haha! so went home after tat..reached home around 10 plus...bathed...still having headache...abit giddy...gtg sleep...yawn~!

07 March 2006

Back to where i was born...=D

it's been a long time since i last blogged...'ve been busy accompanying my parents to view houses in XXX areas and at the same time trying hard to "re-connect" back with my gp of buddies and close frens through gatherings and "dating"(ahem..wif Linda lahz). Hadn't been a "always- there-when-needed"-friend over the past few months or perhaps few yrs ever since i entered poly two yrs ago...haiz..so angry with myself when i was so stressed up over school work and was not present to lend my listening ears and consolation when my buddies were in their most upset and depressed state...so disappointed with myself! anyway, back to present, now tat exams are over, i am trying my best to be a supportive and "on" friend!
after viewing so many houses in XXX, finally, my parents and sister all agreeded on a unit ...erm..not gg to disclose here..hehe! the next thing to be busy with will be to research and crack our brains on our house renovation! yeah yeah! new kitchen! but i still like my present kitchen cabinet best! hehe. haiya...chun is on attachment now...wendy's busy wif projects, some rsmates gg ns, my polymates..some are busy wif DRP and work, i have only these things to keep me busy..haha! no work no income recently..sian arh! this sat i the release of my exam results..dun think i did well..realli..i'm very worried over almost all the subjects i had..FPQAP! oh man...think i will blog till here...not gg think further...as usual..hope tmr will be a better day!

27 February 2006

I love k-BOxing!!!! addicted!! argh!! [Sunday, February 12, 2006]

woosh~! Finally, FPQAP's over! dunno if i have done well....my report?...hmm...dunno..all i can say is i have did my best for the portfolio..haiz! ok...shooo away all the unhappy worries!! had a enjoyable time wif my sec sch frens today. all of gathered at CCK kbox. by rite i'm supposed to meet chun at 10.30 at woodlands mrt control station, but smthg caught up and in the end she went ahead first to meet the others at the kbox. in the end i went alone to meet them.. reached there at around 11.30...oops! as usual....i was always late for gatherings! kim seng, jing quan, hann zai, xiao chuan and of course my best of the best sister, ah chun! honestly! it was my first time at kbox...ya...wat a joke rite...haiz! anyway, my first song there was ah mei's ji de. din sing well of coruse coz huven "kai sheng". was not stable at all...haiyo! but can understand lah...the rest also huven "kai sheng"..so nthg to laugh at. haiya...dunno y....i feel tat my singing was not as gd as last time...used to sing without "zao sia" de...but now very easy go out of tune...omg! gonna train up for next tue! hehehe..yen hwa....let's "po sia" tgt...!! lolx! den i sang shan hu hai wif hann zai....so tired to sing tat song...lara's voice so high pitched!! cldn't quite hit the high pitch! haiyo! muz train up! hehe! hmm....den accompany ah chun to wait for her aunty to pass her sm new yr stuffs....so had lunch tgt at cck b1 food court. chat alot abt sch work and problems we've been facing....we jus can chat non-stop! haha! love chatting wif her! den went off...after meeting her aunt, both of us parted at the interchange and headed home. guess we r pretty tired after 6.5 hrs of singing...haha...but we love it! keke! haiz...after all the fun, it's time to study!! argh! no choice...this coming week is study week...supposed to study all day all nite...but hey hey! it's Val.time day on tue! so karen, yen hwa, ryan?, man kit, belinda will be going Tampanies kbox tgt to sing and relax! yeah yeah! den after tat...i promise i will start my revision..keke! pls...i need someone to motivate me! yes! motivate me! who will be my motivater? anyone? who will be my guardian angel?! any angels? but i prefer devil who are kind...hahaz! tmr have to go back sch again for adfs and fpr revision session...haiya! gtg bath....yeah yeah! =)

Bad Day!! [Friday, February 03, 2006]

First of all, happy doggy year! this's my first blog since CNY but it doesn't seems a pleasant one! hiaz! it's a bad bad BAD day! had my FPQAP Phy/Chem lab test today. it wasn't very smooth. oh gosh! the more i recall back, the more painful my heart gets!! it was such a long time since i last used the Aw meter and i always forgot the simplest thing of all which was how to open up the Aw meter to put in the samples! i am such a forgetful and dummy person! y am i born with such a sucky brain!! and i din get the accurate brix level...it was supposed to be 20 degree brix and i got 21.4 degree brix even though i did w/w! wat the hell! den aW was a mess! the worse was pH calibration!! i got the very new pH meter which I had nv used before!! the day be4 i revised how to use tat...thanks to yean fang who went to the extent to type the instructions on how to operate a pH meter in the format of an email and sent to me. yet..i still did badly in the calibration thingy. and my luck was "SO GOOD" tat my examiner was tat "super-reasonable" women! we were given 15min for each station and stationA (pH calibration and reading) was the one with the highest mark component!! i was the last to use the pH meter and i rem very clearly that i had used abt 10 mins to take my final reading with calibration and all..ok fine, i admit i was slow becoz i was unfamiliar with the instructions on how to calibrate since i had not used tat before! but i did not exceed the time! she said "finished up" and i did..of course! i took the final reading pH 3.7++...can't rem! but she said when she said "finish up" means she will not grade what i had done! wat the hell! she the worse women i had ever come across!!! argh!! can't stand tat ah beng also! to think he always assume individual lab test component and interviews are "tools" which determines if the individuals have been learning and doing work or jus slacking around and relying on other gp mates! HAHAHAHA!!!! a diligent person who does all the work in a project can be someone who does badly in individual test!! i see alot of real life examples k! and he din even bother to prepare different sets of qns for diff gp's interview which was allocated at diff days! get wat i mean?!
Well...but i received a news today. i got selected to work at tat company for my SIP...erm...dunno if it's a GOOD news coz i have mixed feeling abt it. i was very enthui abt the interview but after tat i dunno if i had made the right choice! am i gd enough to work there? will i throw my sch's face? am i capable of performing well there? oh man! i have doubts abt myself! but one thing for sure, i have interest in tat project and hopefully i can learn a lot of things from the ppll there. hope it will be an enjoyable and pleasant learning and working experience there! i pray to god!

28 January 2006

Just Another Empty Page In My Life

I tried to be happy for you
When I wasn't.
I pretended I understood you
When I didn't.
I said I wasn't disappointed in you
When I was.
I told you I didn't care anymore
When I did.
Now you are nothing
but A piece of trash lying under my bed
Something that will
Soon be thrown away and forgotten.
We are drifting apart
Slowly, but surely.
It's almost to the point
Where you are nothing to me.
Your just another empty page in my life.

by: Sierra
Extracted from http://www.dedications.com/poetrydetails.asp?poemid=4633

I happened to come across this page while browsing through for poetry. Read this short but expressive poetry and feel that it describes how i have been feeling recently....